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This weekend I went thrifting.. I realize that a lot of my clothes in my closet were still from freshmen year and were getting too small or I simply over grew them mentally. The green shirt I got for $1.50. It still had the tags on it for $22.50. I had to get it.My favorite ring I am wearing I got in Virginia when I went to visit my family. I love bugs. lol
This weekend I had a mental break down in the middle of freaking Burlington Coat Factory. I cant seem to fit ANY of my jeans anymore. I have always been a size 5-7 and could shop at Wet Seal and Hollister for my jeans. HONEY. WHEN I TELL YOU THAT IS NO MORE...
Its not that I ever wanted to be a size 2. Hell at 145 stacking 6'1 I was all skin and bones and was still a 7.. I always wanted to gain weight.... only for my Beyonce booty. =)
My mom has amazing curves (which she tries to hide) and well..... I am getting them. While this sounds nice, not being able to fit a 7 anymore drove me mad!! I kept trying on pants.. and the number on them kept going up..and up and up...
I felt like I looked like this....
When in actuality I look like this.. Would you believe me if I told you I was 30 pounds shy of 200?
Well my boyfriend nearly lost his mind in my madness and had to remind me that a size i just a size. I am not out of shape, I am healthy and most of all I am beautiful. Also to remember I am a woman of color....and most of us have curves. Doesn't mean your fat.
So heres to the pressures of society. EFF YOU!! lol. To my Beyonce... Thank you.
You should be so lucky to have height of 6-1! I would love to be that tall and you are 170? I think that's fine for your height! I will say once you pass 30 the weight is harder to keep it where it is so enjoy it while it lasts.
ReplyDeleteMy height helps me to wear my weight. So in that sense I am very lucky. Hopefully no more weight will come and I wont have to worry about 30....lol
DeleteI think with my height being 5'1" , the weight that I have on me looks a lot heavier than the scale says I am. Plus when you are a young mom and you see the girls your age who have yet to have their children and have the bod I use to have I can admit sometimes it messes with my esteem. Good thing is when I feel this way, my husband reminds me how beautiful I truly am. I am a firm believer if you don't like something don't complain about it fix it. So once I drop this baby I am going to be on my Jennifer Hudson tip, because she is still curvy but she got to a size that made her comfortable. That is all I want is to be in my comfortable size not necessarily be a size 2, but a size that looks good for my height. Is that asking for too much? Lol
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Awwww bre bre thanks for commenting. I dont think its too much to ask. I remember our Vista days. Flat tummys, small waists... but that was years ago. There is nothing wrong with wanting to be comfortable in your own skin.
DeleteI just love the high school look, but I wouldn't trade my curves for the world! I just feel like if I got back to anywhere between 125-135 that would make me comfortable again! Lol plus in high school I never had hips and butt like this!!!! So for that I am happy.
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You look PERFECT, and I'm not just saying that. For your frame (statuesque) you have the perfect amount of meat on your bones! You are taller than my hubby by one inch and when I gets around 170, I think he looks sickly. You being a female- it looks perfect!
ReplyDeletethanks honey. Its just hard to come into at first. Im learning to accept it though. lol
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