I forgot I was Beautiful.

This weekend I went thrifting.. I realize that a lot of my clothes in my closet were still from freshmen year and were getting too small or I simply over grew them mentally. The green shirt I got for $1.50. It still had the tags on it for $22.50. I had to get it.My favorite ring I am wearing I got in Virginia when I went to visit my family. I love bugs. lol

This weekend I had a mental break down in the middle of freaking Burlington Coat Factory. I cant seem to fit ANY of my jeans anymore. I have always been a size 5-7 and could shop at Wet Seal and Hollister for my jeans. HONEY. WHEN I TELL YOU THAT IS NO MORE...

Its not that I ever wanted to be a size 2. Hell at 145 stacking 6'1 I was all skin and bones and was still a 7.. I always wanted to gain weight.... only for my Beyonce booty. =)

My mom has amazing curves (which she tries to hide) and well..... I am getting them. While this sounds nice, not being able to fit a 7 anymore drove me mad!!  I kept trying on pants.. and the number on them kept going up..and up and up...

I felt like I looked like this....

When in actuality I look like this.. Would you believe me if I told you I was 30 pounds shy of 200?

Well my boyfriend nearly lost his mind in my madness and had to remind me that a size i just a size. I am not out of shape, I am healthy and most of all I am beautiful. Also to remember I am a woman of color....and most of us have curves. Doesn't mean your fat.

So heres to the pressures of society. EFF YOU!! lol. To my Beyonce... Thank you.