Do You Remember the Day...

This past week has seemed very surreal. In an odd way. I feel like im the one in the movie scene of constant flashbacks. Life use to be so simple. Decisions like where everyone was going to meet on the first day of school, where I was going to find time to do cheerleeding and soccer. The times where staying out until the very last street light came on just to say you weren't late. I remember the life where I didn't have to worry about much. Just life. I grew up a lot more privileged than others which is a blessing in itself.

I am very grateful for the life I lead now. I have been on my own since 16, provided for myself since the day after high school graduation.. Went to college, kept a roof over my head, food on the table, always went to work. There comes time when I am like damn...what the hell do I do next? I don't  know what to do. But I push forward and I remind myself that there is an end result.

I know I won't be a doctor tomorrow. But soon. Just have to keep pushing. I know my brother and bff would be proud.

“People say, 'I'm going to sleep now,' as if it were nothing. But it's really a bizarre activity. 'For the next several hours, while the sun is gone, I'm going to become unconscious, temporarily losing command over everything I know and understand. When the sun returns, I will resume my life.'

- George Carlin